It has been my experience that those with no vices have very few virtues.

They just haven’t lived enough to have enough true virtues.

For living, truly living, means encountering vices which hold you so dearly that you never leave them. And continuing to live with those vices is what develops true virtues.

A man cannot be considered strong unless he’s been battle tested. And a person cannot have true virtues unless they’ve been tested with vices they cannot resist.

This is what I know.

– Abraham Lincoln

Whether he actually wrote this or not, I don’t care.  It has meaning to me.

Again, take it with a grain of salt but I’ve found these videos to be meaningful to me.  It’s a series of lessons associated with Kabbalah but without the typical mysticism.  I’m only including the link to lesson 1, but it’s an entire course.

Quick Summary:

The purpose of life is to transform an entity only capable of receiving into an entity capable of receiving, via giving.

In the depth of the night I walk down to the dock.

No wind.

No noise.

Looking out across the lake I see the distant lights. Some revealing the dim outline of structures;  some too distant to reveal anything. I stand in awe of the dark waters, the dimly lit shorelines, and the distant lights revealing nothing.

What is it about the darkness, the dimly lit shorelines, and the far off lights that moves me? Possibilities in the darkness? Mystery in the partially revealed? Adventure in the distant?

In the light of day, while still beautiful nothing I saw in the night would amaze me as much. It worries me that darkness brings more joy than light. If not knowing brings more joy than knowing why are we vexed with the desire to seek answers? Is it only the seeking we desire?  Are we to seek forever?

In the middle of the fog even the best eyes cannot see into the distance and the brightest lamp only makes things more obscure.

“…’Verily I say to you, if ye may not be turned and become as the children, ye may not enter into the reign of the heavens;” – Matthew 18:3 (YLT)

Jesus said unless we are as children we may not enter the kingdom of heaven. But maybe it’s not that we need to become like children, but just realize that we already are. In the realization that we are just children is freedom from every sin, every weakness, every shame.

No more
Guilt is gone
No-one to impress
No-one to look up to
Shame leaves
I no longer judge myself
No-one left to judge me

You’re weak
Because they laugh
They only see the fool in you
Give in
Don’t fight back
See the fool in yourself
Stop being you
And be the others
Who laugh at your foolishness
Laugh with them
Who’s left for them to laugh at